Gee, as I look at this photo of my tulips, to say it even in a word or two.
Its New Life. I do have it. I know it….I have been born again.
I had a dream this morning, before waking up, and it inspired me to write this. I was involved in a conversation with someone, who was arguing about Christianity.
This person, went on and on, about how she was turned off with Christians, with the hypocrisy, with pastors, that only wanted her money, and I understood, her concerns. And she shared more.
So I shared with her….Because I know God was on the line listening……
So I started to explain to her, what my salvation meant to me, since, I am a seasoned Christian. So, I am writing it here.
But I started explaining to her, what has happened in the process. I hope I can express it here, as well for your benefit. Perhaps, you don’t see the need for it, perhaps, it seems like a fantasy, as many have told me, but it is not, it really is more.
And I hope to God and pray, that I can articulate it in a way, that makes sense, but that does not complicate it, because to be honest, the plan of Gods salvation, just really comes down to believing, repenting, and obeying God, with prayer. Reading good King James word. I fell in love with God. But I did not fall, if that makes sense.
Its not hard, because there is something that God does, because well HE IS GOD, but He is a gentleman, He does not control us, or make us do anything. So I have to say that at first. Because I have a hard time with control myself.
But let me explain a bit, and share some of my testimony as well, to build a foundation.
See, years ago, I was a very lost young woman. I was very, very lonely. I lived in an environment, to be honest, with my mother, who was not a gracious person, to be that honest. She was a very suspicious person, and she was hard to get a long with, and I don’t want to be disrespectful to her memory, but she and I could not reason with each other. To get results.
I rebelled. Which made it worse, as I look at it. But in any event, it sort of made me jump out of the frying pan, into the fire. And I got burned.
I got burned in the sense, that since, I did not have good role models, or understanding from some, that I had no one to go to. I was very misguided. And then rebellious. Not a good combination.
I started looking for love, and comfort in the wrong places. And it grieves me, to even look back on that, and so I won’t get into details. But I made a lot of mistakes, in searching. And I think we all can do that. Because there is a space in our souls, our hearts, our beings, that just needs to be nurtured, and fulfilled. When we don’t find it, we begin substituting things, for something, to be honest that only God can fulfill. With His love, because He is love. I John 4:16 KJV.
Well, I made a lot of mistakes. A lot of bad calls. A lot of sins! I was in the wrong company. I was doing things that were not healthy for my spirit, but for my physical being as well. I was used by some, and abused. Not a good feeling, to admit here, but it’s true. I was a very trusting soul. No longer.
Anyway, when I finally hit bottom, and I hit hard. I realized, I did not want to live that way any more. I cried out to God. I had an experience, that was sort of out of body, but very spiritual in the sense, that I sensed good and evil. But the evil was winning, and that scared me. (Go to my main page, and look at my testimony. It will give more detail.)
I realized my soul was at stake. I think I was close to death. And I saw evil, mocking me, and laughing at me, and I did not like, that something was controlling me. It was a spirit of the enemy, and I am funny about things like that even with my rebellion from my mother, but I don’t like control. From anything, or anybody. Substances like cigarettes as well, controlled me, and I thought to myself, I don’t like having to have a cigarette, just because it controls my cravings. So that’s one place where I started. I cleaned up. I got sober real quick too.
Mama, had said that she had quit smoking, by asking God for help. She asked him to take the desire away. He did, mama was a good woman, though she was very hurt, very broken. I won’t take that from my mama. She was very, very protective, in the sense that she was controlling. But she loved me. And I never experienced any kind of abuse from someone else who could have been in the house, because she was lonely. From a sexual pervert. You get my drift. Mama took care of me. It was hard. She could have easily brought a man in the home to be her comfort, but she did not, I was the priority.
Anyway, back to my testimony. So when I asked God to take the desire of cigarettes away from me too, it happened. The desire left, and very easily. I was not one of these people, who struggled, or who had issues of craving, it just left, and I have not smoked since then. My goodness it has been over 45 years, at least. Anyway….
So when I saw that, I began understanding the principles of obeying God. I began understanding, His ways, because I began searching for Him. To please Him. To not try and compromise His ways, because I have learned throughout the years, obedience is the key to ensuring my salvation.
I don’t take for granted, what Christ did for me on the cross. I have had many experiences, too many to even point out here, but God has always been there for me. Always. Instructing me, coaxing me, teaching me, His ways. Protecting me, from dangerous situations. And if something negative has happened to me, it has been because of my lack of good judgement, but I never blame God for my mistakes.
Anyway, how can I put all this in just one post? All I can say, is I do know God!
I am not brainwashed, I am soul washed. I believe in daily repentance. I also believe in just trusting God, even when things are tough. I will never, ever let go of God, no matter how hard things can be, and they have been. See, if I let go, that would be my safety net, and I don’t want to eliminate something that offers me spiritual security, that could even also affect my physical being. God has protected me, sent angels to guide me, loved me. When no one else would. So no, I never have problems with my faith. When I have, I realized it was my job, to start working on that. And yes, works build up faith. Look up the King James scripture, faith without works is dead. In fact, memorize it, because it ticks me off, when folks, undermine works.
FOR AS THE BODY WITHOUT THE SPIRIT IS DEAD, SO FAITH WITHOUT WORKS IS DEAD ALSO. JAMES 2:26 KJV.
This is why I do get ticked off, when someone mocks my Christianity, my faith, my belief. Because God Himself has saved me, and cared, and loved me, when no one else would. They have not walked in my shoes. How dare they mock this! (Sorry, I am venting. Lol.)
He sent me my husband, which is a miracle in itself. And I have a family. With him, and our son. Finances, are always provided for. I don’t look for Gods hand, I look to His face. Its a relationship folks. One that I honor, and I want to be loyal to. In fact it has taught me to be loyal to others, because He is loyal to me, and I am loyal to Him.
I take to heart what my King James bible says. It says to love Him, to love others, and to forgive. I try. I fail sometimes, but I get back up and try.
He has healed me, spiritually, and physically many times. Jeremiah 17:14 KJV is another testimony of His healing. Because I prayed it, and I pray His holy word.
I am growing on the vine, and I am producing fruit. I see it, after years, of searching for Him, and He has used me, to be a light, for Christ. I have over 300 posts just here, that I have written, for His glory. In fact, in the future, well they will be more available…..and thats all I will say for now.
All I know, to conclude this, to wrap this up a bit. Is, I don’t worry about when I leave this earth. I know heaven will be my home. I know, Christ, will greet me, when my soul leaves this body. I am not perfect. I am not holier than thou. I am just someone, who was so broken, and lost, but He came and saved me. He came, and taught me. He held me. I realize we all sin, and we all come short of His glory, so I want to be careful about judging. But I know we are called to warn, as Ezekiel 33 KJV tells us, and that includes warning the righteous too, and I hope part of my message here is to warn you. don’t play with your salvation. Make it right with God. Fear Him.
But I know I have my part, and this is where some, misunderstand, but they don’t know God is a legal God. When I hear messages, that shun, or undermine the law. His laws. I shudder. Because they are doing a disservice. God did not flip flop from the old testament, to the New Testament. He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. The only law we are free from, is the law of sin and death. Not HIS COMMANDMENTS!
FOR THE LAW OF THE SPIRIT OF LIFE IN CHRIST JESUS HATH MADE ME FREE FROM THE LAW OF SIN AND DEATH. ROMANS 8:2. KING JAMES.
I fear God. And thats not taught either. He does test us sometimes. And when He does, He usually is silent….
COME AND HEAR, ALL YE THAT FEAR GOD, AND I WILL DECLARE WHAT HE HATH DONE FOR MY SOUL. PSALMS 66:16 KJV.
BUT HE KNOWETH THE WAY THAT I TAKE: WHEN HE HATH TRIED ME, I SHALL COME FORTH AS GOLD. JOB 23:10 KJV.
See, there are consequences, to what we do on this earth, and I think its stupid, yes, I will be blunt. Its stupid, to not embrace His plan of salvation. Its stupid to think you have a license to sin. And it will deceive you.
It is not complicated. He is just trying to have a relationship with us. But He has his ways, and He is not mocked. His ways are of excellence. He does not compromise on that.
Boy if I could hammer that one, I would, because so many in our world, mock Him. Mock Christianity. And they think they can get away with the dirty ugly deeds that they do, and they won’t. There will be a price to pay. Galatians 6:7 King James. You know what to do….
See, Christ died on the cross for us, to take that penalty of sin away. But if you mock it, if you ignore it, well you do your own soul a disservice. You become your own enemy. You let the enemy deceive you. Because he knows his soul is bound for hell, but he wants to take as many with him, as possible.
But Christ, makes a way. He is the way, the truth, and life. Read it from a King James. John 14:6. See, I want you to search, His truths, thats what I did, and do. Don’t just take my word for it, I challenge you to find the truth yourself. Do not get lazy in your Christianity. And then share it with others.
I just cannot understand, why folks would deny the plan of salvation. Maybe they don’t understand it. Maybe they have seen so many hypocritical Christians, that they think, I don’t want that. I don’t blame them. Neither do I. In fact, the most pain, or hurt was from Christians that I trusted, and loved. So no I understand. Perfectly.
But when you give your heart to Christ, you begin a relationship. See, He does not lie. He keeps His word. He is not a man, that could do that. So thats why getting to know Him, and what He says is so important. This is why I constantly reiterate, and bring up using a King James bible, because it is His voice, not a man, who changed the word, to understand. Because God gives you the understanding if you search for Him in a King James. It is His voice, and to another, I will not follow.
MY SHEEP HEAR MY VOICE, AND I KNOW THEM, AND THEY FOLLOW ME. JOHN 10:27 KJV.
AND A STRANGER WILL THEY NOT FOLLOW, BUT WILL FLEE FROM HIM: FOR THEY KNOW NOT THE VOICE OF STRANGERS. JOHN 10:5 KJV.
Its not religion folks. Remember this. Religion is rules, regulations, traditions, rituals made by men and groups. They make mistakes, we see it all the time. And I won’t name them. By their religion. But I don’t trust men, or people, (religion) for my salvation, or even to minister to me any more. Sad huh? No, I go to the source God Himself, and no one can comfort me, or teach me, instruct me, like He can.
So no, I have just learned, and maybe the hard way, that has produced fruit, is that its so important to build that relationship with God. He did His part, and all I have to do is trust and obey. Fear Him, because there will be consequences. Don’t get in hot water, even though it can clean you up, and live for Him, because He died for me, and you.
I just know if I had not made that decision years ago, I probably would be dead, because I was on that path. Sometimes, you have to stop at those cross roads, and look and see, and choose the old path, because if you choose the wide path, well, its a path that leads straight to hell.
THUS SAITH THE LORD, STAND YE IN THE WAYS, AND SEE, AND ASK FOR THE OLD PATHS. WHERE IS THE GOOD WAY, AND WALK THEREIN, AND YE SHALL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. BUT THEY SAID, WE WILL NOT WALK THEREIN. JEREMIAH 6:16 KJV.
Anyway, if I feel led to add more here I will, but for now, I just hope you make it right with Christ. Heres a small prayer of salvation, if it will help.
Father, I know I am a sinner, and I come to you on my knees, humble. Knowing Lord, I do not deserve your mercy, but I pray for it anyway. I repent of my sins, sins, that I have known not to be right, but also for sins, I have no idea what was right or wrong in your sight. Secret sins, I bring them to your throne, and repent. I accept Christ as my Lord and savior. I know He went to the cross, suffered, and died for me, to have this gift. This gift of salvation. It makes me sad, to know my sins, put Him on that cross. But I am so thankful. I don’t know if I can ever produce fruit for you, but I want to make sure my soul, has a place to go when I leave this earth, and when those books of life, are opened, I want the record to reflect that I knew you, and you knew me, and I made it right with you. Lord, I just ask that you break the chains of bondage off of me. Those things that have separated me from you. Those things, that you consider as sin. Spiritual curses. Maybe even generational curses. Take them off of me, by the blood of Jesus, I plead. Change my heart. Give me love, and help me to know you and love you. Help me to love others too Lord. Lord, I ask for life abundantly in Christ, because He died for me. Help me Lord, I want to make it all right with you. And have peace from now until the time, I stand before you. In Jesus name. Amen.
Friend, if you prayed that prayer, I hope you document the date, and start growing on the vine with Christ. You will make mistakes, but keep running to His throne. We all do, but when we are wise enough to take things to heart, be accountable to Him, and yes others, we grow. And thats what it is all about.
THAT IF THOU SHALT CONFESS WITH THY MOUTH THE LORD JESUS, AND SHALT BELIEVE IN THINE HEART THAT GOD HATH RAISED HIM FROM THE DEAD, THOU SHALT BE SAVED. ROMANS 10:9 KJV.
Its your responsibility to keep the relationship going. He did His part. Do yours!
Never, ever be ashamed of Him. It takes courage, to do so, but I won’t hide my light. In fact, God gives me a boldness to confront things, because I acknowledge Him, and His ways, His truth, through Jesus. And I know if I am ashamed of Him, He would be ashamed of me, when I stand before Him, and His angels.
WHOSOEVER THEREFORE SHALL BE ASHAMED OF ME AND OF MY WORDS IN THIS ADULTEROUS AND SINFUL GENERATION; OF HIM ALSO SHALL THE SON OF MAN BE ASHAMED, WHEN HE COMETH IN THE GLORY OF HIS FATHER WITH THE HOLY ANGELS. MARK 8:38 KJV.
I hope my thoughts here, kind of explain, about salvation, and how it affected me. But just know, you will have your own testimony, your own story to tell others, to say, LOOK WHAT THE LORD HAS DONE FOR ME.
It may be different, but you will start to see the difference, slowly perhaps, but you will see fruit, from God. You will see the cleansing. You will see your mind changed. Things that you once desired, will repulse you, because the Holy Spirit, will quicken you. I used to cuss so much, but thats one thing He took away from me too. I get disgusted, when I see profanity. Gee there are so many words to choose from in His truth, and a dictionary. I learned, I am the temple of the living God….
This is true….
Oh well, all I know, is I am changed. And I give Him glory for it. And I thank Him, for my salvation. What a gift, what a blessing. It is Love. Its my reassurance, in a world that does not offer that. But He does.
Blessings, and love,