" CHRISTIANITY 101" THIS IS MY PRAYER OF HOPE TO THINK AND DO ALL IN LOVE! WHATSOEVER THINGS THAT ARE TRUE, HONEST, JUST, PURE, LOVELY, OF GOOD REPORT, IF THERE BE ANY VIRTUE, AND IF THERE BE ANY WAY TO GIVE PRAISE TO GOD, THESE ARE THE THINGS I TRY TO THINK ABOUT…BASED ON PHILLIPIANS 4:8 I CLAIM THIS BASED BY ALL OF GODS WORD, PRAYING MY THOUGHTS HONOR THE MIND OF CHRIST.
How can of us, really think we are saints? I know, what keeps me on the straight and narrow path, is when I realize that we all sin, we all fall short of the glory of God. We all do.
When any of us, think we are a saint, we get into dangerous territory. We can get puffed up. Puffed up can lead to pride, and God hates pride.
I don’t claim to be a saint, nor do I want to say I am a sinner as well. I bring it all to the obedience of Christ. In repentance, in humbleness.
Something about looking in His spiritual mirror reminds me there is only one that is perfect, pure, worthy of praise and adoration and that is Christ. Not me.
I know, I have sinned. I pray I do not sin now. I pray I do not ever take advantage of what Christ did for me, on the cross.
But the balance for me, which I pray is pleasing in the sight of God, is to be aware, He is the only one, who can call me a saint. By seeing, I have accepted Him, by repenting. By turning away from my sins, to please Him. And only Him.
Not myself, or others. But Him….
Saint or Sinner, is His call, not mine.
“A false balance is abomination to the Lord: but a just weight is his delight.”Proverbs 11:1 KJV
Concentrate on the love. Not the differences. Love a brother and a sister in Christ. Avoid, spats, minor, differences of opinion. Pray for others, whether right or wrong, we are called to love one another. Not just by word, but by spirit, and truth, as we worship our Lord. He sees. He knows.
Forgive, some things are not even worth pondering on. Yes, keep your dignity, in Christ, but as you sometimes shake the dust off, keep walking in love….Love never, ever fails.
Love is what Christ said we would be known by. Whether a baby Christian, or a seasoned Christian, does not agree. We are supposed to be on the same side. Love fears God. I do…..
FREEDOM OF SPEECH DO YOU USE IT OR ABUSE IT? By Elena Ramirez
I am grateful to God for our freedoms, here, in the United States. Many are using that right, even now with our new President. Donald J. Trump. To protest, and express how they feel. But they cross a line, when they riot.
I do not agree with many of these views. Because they are not my core values, but I do respect freedom of speech. But what I see, is many hide behind their computer, or even publicly say, and do things with freedom of speech that makes me cringe. They abuse it.
So lately, I don’t know, I have been seeing a lot of abuse. By many. And I guess it even concerns me, when I see a brother or a sister, in Christ abuse it.
People, I love.
Look, God gives us each a conscience. But maybe you will just consider what I am about to say as love. Maybe a guideline to help you.
But let me ask you a few questions… Is what your sharing, is it truth? Is it a lie? Is it love? Or is it hate? Is it mean spirited? Is it something, that will bring understanding? Is it something, that is not a bad example for others to learn from? Hmmm. Is it something that respects? Is it something that disrespects? Does it bring unity to us as Americans, and yes even people of other races, creeds, religions etc.
Or does it set out to cause division?
Are you promoting life? Or are you promoting something that hurts life? And takes it away…..
Is your agenda, Gods agenda?
All of these things are just things we can miss. I know, I probably do. And for that I repent to God. We need to find the balance. I am not your conscience. You are. I know, myself, I have erred….
But I also know…..
If God is your savior, you know, He knows your thoughts…..
But there are things, I just shake my head at, because its as if the person, is not really thinking…..
For, when I see a brother or a sister, playing with someones emotions. And they put out something, that may make ME sympathize with them, and even bring out outrage, or anger, because they were hurt, or insulted, and then THEY say;
“Hey I was just playing with you” I was pulling your leg.
I look at that as very immature.
Its a spirit, you are releasing that is a lie, and then you call it a joke. It harms your spirit, because you are practicing lying….
You have to look at the fruit of it, and what it gives, and what it does for you. And yes even others.
I don’t trust lies, or liars, and when I see someone who I trusted use that kind of illustration, to make me think different. Or to play with my emotions. I do, no longer, trust the integrity of that person.
Its like the analogy of the little boy, who cried wolf. Making people believe him, but when they saw the lie, they stopped believing him. But the sad thing happened, the wolf really did appear. No one believed him, when he truly spoke the truth….
Look, I want to be very general about this. But lets remember.
Freedom of speech is a gift. Its something we need to honor, and protect. It should not be used, to incite, evil, or violence, or anything that goes against what Christ taught us in love. The report, should bring light, not darkness, to ourselves or others.
Yes, and truth does not always means it won’t hurt. It will…
But, use love if your going to bring truth to it. Look, I am a warrior, but even God teaches warriors to be diplomatic.
I take to God what my KJV Says, and I don’t want to just pick and choose, for my purposes.
Just food for thought, this morning. Freedom of speech…do you use it, or abuse it?
FINALLY BRETHREN, WHATSOEVER THINGS ARE TRUE, WHATSOEVER THINGS ARE HONEST, WHATSOEVER THINGS ARE JUST, WHATSOEVER THINGS ARE PURE, WHATSOEVER THINGS ARE LOVELY, WHATSOEVER THINGS ARE OF GOOD REPORT, IF THERE BE ANY VIRTUE, AND IF THERE BE ANY PRAISE THINK ON THESE THINGS…..THESE THINGS WHICH YE HAVE BOTH LEARNED AND RECEIVED, AND HEARD, AND SEEN IN ME DO: AND THE GOD OF PEACE SHALL BE WITH YOU. PHILIPPIANS 4:8-9. KJV.
I just realize if we are going to use our voices, we really need to stop, and think, and be responsible.
Accountable to God and others. In love… I never want to abuse this gift.
Do you know why loyalty is so important? The right kind of loyalty? The kind, that is kind, and holy, and beautiful. And good? The kind that is love?
The kind of loyalty, that is true, and royal, that comes from God, is the kind we should all aspire to do for one another. But you cannot have that unless you are loyal to God first. And that is my goal.
Whether someone agrees with me or not. I work out my salvation, with fear, and trembling. Fear of God.
Just remember, and do not ever, ever forget….the Lord, knows about loyalty. God the father, had His Kingdom all in tact, till the enemy the devil disrupted heaven, with his jealousy, and was disloyal, causing war in heaven.
When Christ walked the earth, and He had his disciples. How true were they, when Judas, betrayed Christ, and yes even Peter denied knowing Him?
Folks, God knows and sees, disloyalty. He will not bless being disloyal. Just saying, so next time, someone trusts you. Don’t play with their heart. Because you may lose someone who is true, and was loyal to you. And worse you may lose the sense of what is true and loyal.
Be accountable to God and others, repent, when you see this in yourself. It can come to any of us so easily, but if you love God, you will be loyal to God first. Then to others.
You have to see this, if you truly want to serve God, or to have your salvation in tact. Its called love. Loving God first, then others, as we are commanded.
This is what I aspire to do, and if someone cannot see that and make fun of it. Mock it, try to undermine it, or call it being melodramatic. Or any kind of sarcastic name. I really have nothing else to say….. Nor will I waste my time. I will shake the dust off.
I will walk with Christ….. He understands loyal. He understands love. He taught me love, by saving me. By showing me what He did on the cross. I will be loyal to that.
I love the Lord, and thats who I am, take it or leave it. I love my friends. And I am loyal to them. But I know the difference. A friend, truly loves at all times. Not when its just convenient.
Its always a choice.
AND JESUS ANSWERED HIM THE FIRST OF ALL COMMANDMENTS IS, HEAR O ISRAEL; THE LORD OUR GOD IS ONE LORD; AND THOU SHALT LOVE THE LORD THY GOD WITH ALL THY HEART, AND WITH ALL THY SOUL, AND WITH ALL THY MIND, AND WITH ALL THY STRENGTH; THIS IS THE FIRST COMMANDMENT. AND THE SECOND IS LIKE, NAMELY THIS, THOU SHALT LOVE THY NEIGHBOR AS THYSELF, THERE IS NONE OTHER COMMANDMENT GREATER THAN THESE. MARK 12:29-31. KJV.
In Christ, praying to always be loyal to the King of Kings…….
MY THOUGHTS ON OPPOSITION AND REJECTION IN THE BODY OF CHRIST ~ By Elena Ramirez
There are times, you will share your heart, you will share your faith, and you will find that people will not accept you and will reject you. It may cause you to draw back. Because you have been hurt. Burned. This is not the time to pull back, but to pull yourself back up, and put on the full armor of God, and raise your shield of faith up. Give God glory…
This is a time to grow stronger. To learn, to participate… This is not a time to get weaker, don’t back off, from who you are in Christ. Don’t get discouraged with rules, and regulations, and traditions, that are made by men, and groups, that are religion. Or even rules and regulations made by the world.
Relationship is obtainable with Christ. By true pure holy word, from the King James, and by prayer. Don’t let religion or the world, tell you you are scum, because someone cannot see your potential. You must see your own potential in Christ, and you must grow!
You see, whats sad, is not everybody respects. And whats more sad, is you don’t expect especially brothers and sisters in Christ, to turn on you like a dog. You kind of expect it from the world, but not Christians. But you need to keep on…..You question your own motives. And you see when you have been wronged.
Not when you know there is no malice in your heart, in even discussing matters. Some people cannot comprehend truth, or an open heart. One that has been healed. One that has seen truth. One that really does try to fight a good fight of faith. It bothers them to see you maintain who you are in Christ.
I know many people, have a hard time, with my own stance on some matters of God. I don’t profess, to be always right, but when I know, I am right, and I am challenged, fought with, mocked, rejected, made fun of, I have come to realize usually the person, I am dealing with, has their own issues. Insecurities….
And so it becomes a challenge, to them, to try and discredit me, or make me look bad, so they can look good. That is evil. Exactly what the devil, tried to do in the Kingdom of God.
They may think they are so sly. With subliminal messages, with words that undermine. To mock, or puff up, so prideful….to hurt. Thats the goal by them to hurt.
But I have learned its not so much the words, but the actions. The behaviors. People will only be around, as long as you give them attention. Once you stop that, they stop as well, and you see the fruit. Walk away.
Love, loves, at all times. Even if people do not agree with you. Something to be said, about just being courteous….
I want to encourage you to keep shining your light for Christ. There is a lost world out there. Don’t let people, who have very deep rooted, problems of their own, make you feel inferior, because you are shining. Shining for the King of Kings. The Lord of Lords. You are called to be obedient to this calling….
AND HE SAID UNTO THEM, GO YE, INTO ALL THE WORLD, AND PREACH THE GOSPEL TO EVERY CREATURE. HE THAT BELIEVETH AND IS BAPTIZED SHALL BE SAVED: BUT HE THAT BELIEVETH NOT SHALL BE DAMNED. AND THESE SIGNS SHALL FOLLOW THEM THAT BELIEVE: IN MY NAME SHALL THEY CAST OUT DEVILS: THEY SHALL SPEAK WITH NEW TONGUES. THEY SHALL TAKE UP SERPENTS: AND IF THEY DRINK ANY DEADLY THING, IT SHALL NOT HURT THEM: THEY SHALL LAY HANDS ON THE SICK AND THEY SHALL RECOVER. MARK 16:15-18
There is so much we can do, by being true to Christ. But religion tries to change that. It tries to twist and change His truth. As you can tell I do not trust or like religion. It has tried to hurt me and discredit me. And this is why, I don’t trust many….And this is why I warn you…..
But you must see, you must know to be careful yourself, you do not get prideful. Be careful not to get full of yourself because you may know truth.
Its easy to do, if you take your eyes off of Christ. But put them back on the Lord, and His suffering, and realize your sins, the sins of that brother or sister in Christ is what put Jesus on the cross to begin with. To save us.
This is why when I see, someone at the pulpit, puffing themselves up, or not walking in love, I see, they have to come to that place themselves, and realize the fruit they are producing is not Christ.
Yet they are trying to make someone think and act a certain way, according to the rules of their religion. This is a spirit of manipulation, and that is like witchcraft. I thank God, I learned to be submissive to God. At an early age, but anybody that tries to control me, by denying me, even courtesy, well I can do without.
Wisdom tells me, I cannot make anybody do anything. As I do not want someone to try and make me do something. Religion, tries to enforce things, by even rejecting others, with different approaches. Or insisting they are right.
The sad thing is, if you are a Christian, you need to see, we are all growing on the vine. We may be at different stages. As a baby Christian, as a seasoned Christian, but we are to walk in love, as Christ commanded us. To be brothers and sisters, with kindness, respect and compassion. And when a pastor, or another Christian rejects you, they are being disobedient to the commandment of love.
Be smart my friends, you don’t have to join them, sometimes, you have to walk alone. Sometimes, you have to learn yourself, in relationship with Christ truth. But don’t get turned off by God, just because others in His name rejected you. Don’t lose your faith.
This is a time, to seek God more, with all your heart, and being.
You need to be smart by looking at the fruit. I have opened myself to many, and loved them, but they could not accept my own honesty, or my own flaws, and rejected me, and have been mean to me. It hurts. I won’t deny that. But I have been hurt enough now, to wear my armor of God and quench those fiery darts. They bounce off of me now.
But I know the difference now, and I have realized, I actually thank God for those who are mean, because they have taught me to be stronger in Christ. To seek Him, not religion. Not people not groups. I follow Christ, not a person.
Christ, does not want us to become someones punching bag, or door mat, in fact, when they don’t receive you. Shake the dust off. This is scriptural. Look it up. In a KJV bible.
You begin to see signals, when people avoid you. Or when they are not kind, or support you. Or they only see you and love you at their convenience. Or on their terms. But if you share your faith, they are not always mature enough to let someone even have a difference of opinion. They then snub you. Reject you, openly or subliminally.
The hardest trials I have learned, is learning that other Christian brothers and sisters really are not my brother or sister, but they have made me their enemy. Those have been my greatest wounds in life, betrayal, hate, mockery from a person, I called a sister or brother in Christ. I call that the Judas spirit.
And for that they will need to examine their own conscience, and to reflect that in their own time for they will be judged by God himself.
IF I SIN, THEN THOU MARKEST ME, AND THOU WILT NOT ACQUIT ME FROM MINE INIQUITY. JOB 10:14 KJV.
People wonder, why I have fear of God? Why I wonder if salvation is lost? Because I know that He is the one who will judge me, but if I did not do my best in love, and in guarding my Salvation…. working it out with fear and trembling…I am the one who is responsible for my own growth. My choices. My soul. I do not want to reap hell but heaven when I leave this earth. We reap what we sow. Galatians 6:7. Look it up, in a KJV.
God supplied knowledge, wisdom, the tools to help me grow. Prayer, my King James Bible. He did his part….He supplied my Salvation through Christ. But it is my responsibility to stop and reflect now and then.
Am I doing whats right in the sight of God? Am I being obedient? Am I walking in love, am I giving someone a chance to be their own person in Christ? Am I helping someone, who is maybe trying to help me? Am I praying….
Or has pride, stopped my own growth….Am I practicing what I preach?
I know He is the only one who could deny me heaven or hell. So, I try now more then ever, to walk in love, even if love is not extended to me.
Its not easy being a Christian, but I would never go back to a life without God. I would never go back to the ways of the world. To sin, to just take my salvation for granted. Not when I know what Christ did for me on the cross. I just think if we do not fear God, and we take our salvation for granted, we really are in a dangerous place. A place of being full. And that being full of ourselves, not God. A place of taking what Christ did for granted….
So yes, I keep trying to share, I may miss the mark, I may be rejected, I may not even have an audience, of those to minister to. But I will use what God has given me, here, even to write, and I will pray, God guide those to me, who I can help.
I will not dismiss, nor reject, nor be mean to someone, because I have an agenda. But because Gods agenda is far greater then anything I could even consider. I will continue to shine, my light for Christ. As He commanded, and I will try to do it in love.
Thats the best I can offer He who gave His best for me.
Its a very sad thing, when you see and know a Pastor has been deceived by the devil.
When you see Pastors push people away from truth, from Gods true word. Its a sad thing, when you don’t see love. When you see Pastors, talk about other churches, and puff themselves up, as if they know the truth. But they do not see the error of their own ways.
We are called to love one another. And I know that there are things, we do not always agree on. But when a Pastor, does not have patience. Does not see the truth, the perspective from God himself. He no longer, is guided by God, or the Holy spirit. But by the devil himself.
They become deceived by the devil.
We are called to look at the fruit. By their fruit you will know them. I have been to so many churches, and I have searched, long, and hard, for truth. I have searched for love. Love that is holy from God. Love that is in line with Gods truth. Love that is compassionate as Christ is. Love that accepts all people. And encourages, people of all races to attend.
I know we are all different, we are all growing on the vine at different stages. But Christ said, we would be known by the love.
And there are some things I tolerate, in love, but doctrine, is not one thing I compromise on. I do search for a place, where King James word is. But where there is a balance in truth.
But when I see a pastor, or a church, where growth is not there. Something, is wrong. Its not Gods fault, but the pastor, or the leader of the church is not doing something.
I guess, I have had a taste of this or that, so with discernment, I know, what pleases God. By worship, by prayer, at the beginning of a service, so the Holy Spirit, can have full control. By love. For if love comes from the pulpit, it would flow to the whole congregation.
When Pastors, are not patient, in even disagreeing, what does that say? If they do not communicate, when spoken to…If they accuse members of discord, and insist they are protecting the congregation, yet, pushing someone away who is sincerely, asking, for guidance, and they are reprimanded, just because they ask, thats not love.
This according to Jeremiah 23;1 is scattering the body of Christ. It is not unity, but it is causing division. A house divided cannot stand. Christ warned us, that they would push us out of our churches. Out of their synagogues. This is a Pharisee spirit. Beware.
He told us, these things. It does not make one feel better, but we know.
It is a sad state, we are all in, as the body of Christ. And it very well does make me understand, why many people stop going to church. Religion, is a very strange thing. When people embrace, “religious” principles, that go against the word of God, they are thereby making their own rules, regulations, and traditions. And they lose something. They are losing, truth, their emotions, they are losing relationship. Relationship with Christ. They are creating their own religion.
They lose the guidance of the Holy spirit, by the truth. Yes, it has to be truth, Gods holy King James word. To take the responsibility, as a Pastor, I am sure would be a very difficult job. Yet, with God guiding, I know it would be easy. He says, take my yoke it is easy.
But it is sad, when the truth, is picked over, or the gospel is watered down. And instead there is a tickling of the ears. To please people. Or to please just the pastor. Himself. But not God. Theres always a balance, and a false balance, is an abomination to God.
To lose balance, of truth, to lose balance, and accept, that salvation is secure, is not in fear of God. Its not taking to heart the many scriptures, that God has given us. Salvation can be lost. Folks, salvation, is a gift. But it is a contract. We have our part. God did His part, by sending His son to die for us. Christ did His part, by going on the cross, being obedient, to the Father.
But we have our part, we are to work out our salvation, with trembling, and fear. Fear of God. For He is the one who will judge us. He is the one, who can either allow us in heaven or hell. But it is by what we did on this earth.
We all sin, we all come short of the glory of God. Repentance, is what keeps you secure. Obedience to God. Do not forget that, no matter what you get out of this. Remember repentance, is what keeps the slate clean. In fear of God.
Never take that for granted. If you do not see altar calls, for the lost, the broken, the backslider, to come to the altar to repent. That is a church, where the pastor is being disobedient. Don’t go there. When you see communion is not served. In remembrance of Christ. Don’t go there. If you see, God is not invited at the beginning of the service to have full reign, to guide that service, in prayer. Don’t go there. If you see, worship, is not encouraged, don’t go there. Worship must be always to please… the King of Kings, and Lord of Lords. If you do not see prayer, for one another, and it is not encouraged, then don’t go there. If you see, the pastor, does not encourage everyone, in their own gifts and callings don’t go there. If you see the message, turns into a prosperity message, and someone twists and claims scripture for self, but dismisses salvation. Run….don’t follow them. Follow Christ.
If you do not see the pastor, love the people, but hides, and is evasive, run from that church. If you see, the scorner, the person, that thinks they are only right, but everybody else is wrong, at the pulpit, run from that church.
If you see, someone else being denied freedom of speech, or does not let someone express themselves, this is mind control. We all need to communicate now, and then, this is not discord, just because you talk. To another brother or sister in Christ. Or because you have different ideas. For someone who would take this stance, is very insecure themselves. This is someone, if they could would burn you at the stake if they could.
Instead, of talking, or communicating to someone, in love but putting someone down. This kind of spirit is trying to take away your own ability to think on your own. This is someone who does not embrace freedom to be themselves. Or others.
If someone has no respect to your pace, as to where you are, as a baby Christian, or as, even a seasoned Christian, or as just someone who wants to learn in Christ, or wants to understand the church, and are called, disrespectful, troublemakers, or someone causing discord, these kind of pastors are not walking in love. And, in Christ. We all need to ask questions, and love each other. If you don’t see the love run.
You don’t have to deny someone a right to think to be a leader. You don’t have to hit someone with the Bible, or hit someone back in the head with the Bible. Just because they disagree. Sure share word, and again, I only suggest King James word, because other versions are corrupt, and no longer holy or anointed, but share love, more then anything.
Run from them. Don’t let someone control your mind, or your soul, by being a part of them. By even being a member of that. It flows from the top, and it will flow to you, and decay your soul.
Salvation should always be the goal of the pastor. And the goal to bring the backslider back to the throne of God. If you do not see it, this is a dead church.
Sometimes it takes a while to see the signs. But God will protect you. Just stay obedient to God. Even if you don’t see love from the pulpit. Even if you have been rejected. Even if you were misunderstood.
Stay true to God. Pray for that pastor, for you see, they have been deceived. Pray for the members of that church. You see, they are Gods lambs. Not the pastor, who is disobedient to God. He sees the wolf in sheeps clothing. Just stay true to God, do not get discouraged.
God loves you, and He will guide you. You don’t wish or hope anything bad for anybody. But you know what God says.
For, it is a sad thing, when you know, truth, and love, and you see something from the pulpit that is not of God.
Just depart, and walk in peace. And always stay humble, and pray. You may be sad, or broken hearted, because it is a sad thing. To see, division, to see disobedience, to see religion, raise its ugly head, and call it Gods truth.
But you know who you are in Christ, and you choose to walk in love. Walk away.
Remember, if you have been accused, or hurt by someone, remember, Christ will stand by the accused. If they are innocent. If they are being obedient to Him. You see the devil, will use an accuser but that accuser has a place right in hell.
Sad, sometimes the devil will use a Pastor, to be an accuser. And they don’t see it, because they think they are right. And they scatter the church. This happens, when a Pastor is deceived by the devil.
AND I HEARD A LOUD VOICE SAYING IN HEAVEN, NOW IS COME SALVATION, AND STRENGTH, AND THE KINGDOM OF OUR GOD, AND THE POWER OF HIS CHRIST: FOR THE ACCUSER OF OUR BRETHREN IS CAST DOWN WHICH ACCUSED THEM BEFORE OUR GOD DAY AND NIGHT. AND THEY OVERCAME HIM BY THE BLOOD OF THE LAMB, AND BY THE WORD OF THEIR TESTIMONY, AND THEY LOVED NOT THEIR LIVES UNTO THE DEATH. REVELATION 12:10-11.
WOE BE UNTO THE PASTORS THAT DESTROY AND SCATTER THE SHEEP OF MY PASTURE. SAITH THE LORD. THEREFORE THUS SAITH THE LORD OF ISRAEL AGAINST THE PASTORS THAT FEED BY PEOPLE. YE HAVE SCATTERED MY FLOCK, AND DRIVEN THEM AWAY, AND HAVE NOT VISITED THEM, BEHOLD I WILL VISIT UPON YOU THE EVIL OF YOUR DOINGS, SAITH THE LORD. JEREMIAH 23:1 KJV.
FOR THE PASTORS ARE BECOME BRUTISH, AND HAVE NOT SOUGHT THE LORD: THEREFORE THEY SHALL NOT PROSPER, AND ALL THEIR FLOCKS SHALL BE SCATTERED. JEREMIAH 10:21 KJV.
MANY PASTORS HAVE DESTROYED MY VINEYARD, THEY HAVE TRODDEN MY PORTION UNDER FOOT, THEY HAVE MADE MY PLEASANT PORTION A DESOLATE WILDERNESS. THEY HAVE MADE IT DESOLATE, AND BEING DESOLATE IT MOURNETH UNTO ME, THE WHOLE LAND IS MADE DESOLATE, BECAUSE NO MAN LAYETH IT TO HEART. JEREMIAH 12:10-11. KJV.
Christ saved me, as I repented. You see, I was saved at an early age. But I sinned, after that. But if I had died, before repenting, I know, I would have found hell as my destination.
But I overcame the enemy, even now, by the blood of the lamb. By Gods truth. Not mine, but His. By rededicating myself. By repenting. By my testimony to the mercy of God, in salvation.
These things, I have experienced. But I so know the difference friends. If you need prayer, or kindness, feel free to write to me. I will lift you up to the Father. I will try to be someone to put salve on your own wounds, to ease your pain, because I do understand. And I am healed in Christ.