DISCOVERING THE JOY FROM DEPRESSION ON RESURRECTION SUNDAY (EASTER) By Christian Author Elena Ramirez
SURELY HE HATH BORN OUR GRIEFS, AND CARRIED OUR SORROWS: YET WE DID ESTEEM HIM STRICKEN, SMITTEN OF GOD, AND AFFLICTED. BUT HE WAS WOUNDED FOR OUR TRANSGRESSIONS, HE WAS BRUISED FOR OUR INIQUITIES, THE CHASTISEMENT OF OUR PEACE WAS UPON HIM; AND WITH HIS STRIPES WE ARE HEALED. Isaiah 53:4-5. KJV.
I was depressed, beginning Good Friday. It was a different kind of depression. I was so sorry, for my past sins, sins, I have repented for. I was depressed for lost time.
I was so depressed, that I got off of Social media, early that day, even though, I do get off, for Sabbath, which starts Friday evening. I got off social media, early in the morning. I was challenged.
I was troubled, I felt like the things I saw, and viewed on Fb, etc. Were so negative. So, challenging. I saw spiritual leaders, proclaiming things like hell wasn’t even there, and it just angered me. I knew, I could not stay on line, with all the things I was seeing, it bothered me. It depressed me. I want to be a good example, but if I had stayed on, I probably would have gotten into an argument. I had to quiet my soul, my spirit…
Because it was as if the enemy, was laughing, and it made me sense, to know, that we are in end times. It is a lost world out there. And when I see, even good natured Christians, so oblivious, to the times, I just want to scream out, can’t you see, there are lost souls out there? What can we do? Jesus died for our sins.
And rather then argue, or make anybody feel bad, or angry, I just got off line.
It made me think of how the disciples must have felt, after our Lord Jesus, was crucified. They must have felt hopeless, they must have felt so discouraged. How could they have hope in His resurrection? They did not know that He would arise from the dead? Or did they?
FOR AS YET THEY KNEW NOT THE SCRIPTURE, THAT HE MUST RISE AGAIN FROM THE DEAD. JOHN 20:9 KJV.
What about doubting Thomas? He did not believe.
JESUS SAITH UNTO HIM, THOMAS BECAUSE THOU HAST SEEN ME, THOU HAST BELIEVED: BLESSED ARE THEY THAT HAVE NOT SEEN, AND YET HAVE BELIEVED. JOHN 20:29 KJV.
How can we believe? How can we trust God? Well, from my own experiences. I just have a sense to know, there is no other option but to believe. And to trust God. For me anyway. I have to try and obey, and I have to try and serve God with all my being. I have to watch my step, and my love walk. I have to remember Gods power, and to have fear of God. I have to remember always the sacrifice of Christ.
I grieved this weekend. It was a very strange sense of depression I had. I felt pretty hopeless, to be honest. I am not going to lie. There are factors in my life, that just don’t seem to find resolution, or healing in, and I actually felt this week, that the enemy mocked me, laughed at me, and told me, “I have stolen so much from you.” I hate thieves. I hate what they represent. Anyway, hate is such a strong word, but I hate what the devil has stolen from me.
But I did have a sense of hope, to know only God, can restore. So I prayed…
This has helped me.
Today, Resurrection Sunday, I did not go to church. I don’t have a church to go to. But, I woke up with some joy. I woke up, knowing that today is the day, the Lord has made, and I will rejoice in it. I woke up, knowing that Christ has risen. I woke up, knowing the disciples saw Christ again, and were joyful, and their sorrow, sadness, depression, was changed that Resurrection Sunday, because of Christ.
I felt the Holy Spirit whisper to me….
“Find joy, in the little things.”
So profound, but it stirred my spirit up. The little things, the little things, that do bring me joy. Oh I could say them, even here, but I don’t want you to confuse my “Little things” with your little things, or big things for that matter.
Because we are all different. We all have different lifestyles, experiences, hardships, and well comparing is never good.
But we must be united in that love. That love that binds us closer to Christ. Christ said, in John 13:35 KJV. Thats how they will know we are his disciples, by the love we have, and for one another.
BY THIS SHALL ALL MEN KNOW THAT YE ARE MY DISCIPLES, IF YE HAVE LOVE ONE TO ANOTHER.
Love is not a little thing, but beginning to love, as small as it is, for whatever reason, can make it bigger.
So, I have a different perspective, this morning. My Lord, has taken my griefs, and sorrow, and healed my spirit.
This Resurrection Sunday. I just have a sense, that small things can grow into big things. But, I am not looking at that, I think I am just searching to find the beauty and joy, in just what Christ has given me, provided for me, shown me, and revealed who He is in these matters. I just know, I fall short of His glory. I just know, I am imperfect, and have flaws. I just know, only He can heal me, save me, and bless me.
So, I am sharing. I am sharing, what has blessed me, as I am so grateful for my Salvation. You know, Salvation, is such a gift, its a big gift, one should never take for granted. But, having the realization that I was a sinner, long ago, and just accepting Christ as my savior, repenting, may be a small thing to some, but as small as that awakening was, it is, the biggest thing, I could do for my life.
I am grateful. I am finding joy, in the small things in life…..
Life is too short my friends, to be depressed. To be sorrowful, to let the enemy steal our joy. When Christ paid the biggest sacrifice for our sins, He paid the penalty for our sins. Thats a big thing…… I never want to take for granted what He did on the cross for me.
Because He told me in my spirit, this morning to “find joy, in the little things.” I intend to do so, to be mindful, to look for the little things, so I can have hope.
Blessings and love,