I feel led to write this. I am a seasoned Christian. I don’t consider myself a baby Christian. I desire the meat of the word, the milk is wonderful. But I can only get meat from my King James bible. It is not corrupted. Its holy, and when I read, His truth from there, I hear Gods voice. Not mans voice who changed it.
But I have learned to dig deeper. I have been on the vine with Christ for many years. I daily strive to learn His truth, to grow, to be a good Christian.
So I want to touch base on “How to separate feelings from doubt to Know in faith, what God says.”
It is not easy, but I am aware of my responsibility as a Christian to take Gods word, His truth, and to rely completely on that. Daily, I grow on the vine with Christ…
Life is hard sometimes. (pause) It is. I won’t deny that. I am not going to lie to folks, and sugar coat things, and tell you, as a Christian, everything is fine and dandy. It’s not.
Maybe to some it is, but it is not for me. Some wounds have not healed.
I guess, that’s why I am writing this, because my emotions, my feelings are very raw right now. Do you ever feel like your are in the middle of a situation, and you need an outlet, but you cannot find it?
You feel stuck? I do, right now, and I won’t get into details.
But do you know how you feel when you are physically hungry? You get moody, you may even react with a “hun-angry” feeling. Well thats how I feel spiritually. I am anxious, I am moody somewhat, and I am frustrated. But the only thing that will fill that hunger is God, His word, singing praises to Him. Worshipping Him. Taking every King James word I find that applies to my situation and claiming His word. I know that, so I cannot neglect that. I just know, I am going to the Lord, to fill my needs to fill my hunger….Claiming HIS PROMISES….
IN THE LAST DAY, THAT GREAT DAY OF THE FEAST, JESUS STOOD AND CRIED, SAYING, IF ANY MAN THIRST LET HIM COME UNTO ME, AND DRINK. JOHN 7:37 King James.
But it has been hard for me. I don’t have an outlet, right now, by friends, a church, or provision, or even an answer from God right now.
I almost feel like not telling anybody, anything, anyway, any more…
It is like a secret. But I don’t want to share my secret with anybody, because I want to see God in it. Not anybody else.
All I know, and I recognize what to do, is to trust God. More than ever.
TRUST IN THE LORD WITH ALL THINE HEART; AND LEAN NOT UNTO THINE OWN UNDERSTANDING. Proverbs 3:5 King James.
This scripture reminds me, where my struggle is. I seem to keep relying on my own understanding. My feelings are dictating that to me. My past also seems to dictate that to me. Old habits, I suppose. But it is not supposed to be like that. And I have to have control over that. What does God say? Thus saith the Lord, has to be the final word for me, it has to be my guide.
And I realize as a mature Christian, I cannot let my feelings dictate to me, what the answer will be. I cannot. I have to hold onto God, and I have to take every promise, every word, from my King James bible, and study it. Study myself as well.
You know, I don’t like comparing myself to others. I would rather walk alone than do that. It is wasted energy, it is wasted on self. I am so aware of what scripture says about the enemy, and how he was about self. So, I don’t want to puff myself up, I don’t want to act better than anybody else, because truth is, we all sin, we all come short of the glory of God. I realize sometimes, what I see, and know, about God, always goes back to faith. And I won’t let go of my faith.
So it has made me come to a point, where I am calming my spirit. Even as I write this. Taking a moment to even pray, and to release myself to God. For an answer. For justification. What good is having lip service to God, if I don’t apply myself totally to His truth?
Years ago, and when I truly made the decision, to walk with Christ. I realized, I had to stop walking between the world, and God. I saw that I was on the fence so to speak. I was living like hell sometimes, and then yes prayerful. How hypocritical I was. God corrected me. It made me see, I had to give myself totally. To Him. I could not take Christ’s sacrifice for granted.
I am not sure if I am doing anything now, that would stop my own prayers. Or if I am not being obedient to God. I can only humble myself, and always be in a position to be corrected if I am wrong. Daily repenting. In the sight of God. Because I never want to reap, the wages of sin. And I never want to act like I am holier than thou. But all I can do, is just take the promises of God right now. Because I do feel like I am at a cross road. And I don’t want to take the wrong road.
Christ is the way, the truth, and the life. I was singing that to my Lord, the other day. I was singing, for Him to show me, the way, as I did pray….Because if He does not show me the way, in these matters, I don’t want it. I don’t want it because I reaped, what I wanted years ago, by bad choices, and when you learn that, it does teach you to stay close to God. If it does not fit, do not force it….
So, as a soldier of the Lord. A hand maiden of God, an ambassador of Christ….. I must, not let my feelings get in the way of the promises of God. I cannot put limits on God, or myself, by my feelings. By, that what I feel.
I make a commitment even here, to hold onto God by His promises. Not by what I feel.
HE THAT HATH NO RULE OVER HIS OWN SPIRIT IS LIKE A CITY THAT IS BROKEN DOWN, AND WITHOUT WALLS. Proverbs 25:28 King James.
My feelings have let me down in the past. And I will not rely on them. Oh I know they are hand in hand with who I am in Christ, but I have to remember the old person has died, and I am a new person in Christ.
Being a Christian means you are growing every day. I am not where I want to be. But I know I am not where I used to be either.
And that even as I see that, here, reminds me anything can happen with God. I remember many things He has done for me.
GLORY TO GOD!
But I have struggled, and I just don’t want to struggle any more. I don’t want to have to make something happen. It has to happen on its own, so I know it is from God. But I am weary, I won’t deny that. But I guess, this is where resting in the Lord, comes in handy. I must not look at my situation.
I must walk by faith, not by sight. I have changed, and I hope I keep changing. Till I meet my Lord. I trust God! I proclaim it, and speak it, and hold onto that thought.
THE LORD REDEEMETH THE SOUL OF HIS SERVANTS: AND NONE OF THEM THAT TRUST IN HIM SHALL BE DESOLATE. PSALM 34:22 KING JAMES.
(Please note) One day after I wrote this, and searched my King James, the Lord brought this scripture to me. Thank you Lord, this comforts me.
I just pray to bless my Lord in that. If this makes sense. And most importantly, I cannot emphasize enough, how important it is to be grateful to God, so I offer thanks here as well.
Some days, I don’t feel that strong, and I consider myself a warrior for our Lord. But there are days, when yes its hard. Today, I rejoice, because God gave me a word. Thanks be to God. I am holding on, even though the devil lies, I won’t believe those lies. God has the final word.
Just my thoughts, today. What are your thoughts, feel free to share your comments. And share this post as well, if you feel led. Just copy and paste the link.