I write this from a place of sickness. A place, where I have the flu, or whatever it is, and it is trying to take my hope away, my trust in God, and where I feel so out of it, that I could just give up. But God… It seems, He draws out my gift, even at the worst of times….
As I try to rest, in the day, I am in a spiritual battle. My dreams, and my spirit is restless, and I hear the devil, telling me to give up. And I say no….
But God reminds me, to always fight a good fight of faith. I am a warrior. I have fought all my life to survive. And I am older now, and I have not met success, in certain ways.
Yes, my life is fruitful, because of my walk with Christ, He saved me. He pulled me out of the miry clay. Yes, my life is successful, because I do have a wonderful husband and son, who love me very much. And the devil, has tried to take that away from me many times, but God, protected me, when it came to temptation. Or just giving up, on my marriage. When there was trouble.
I used to fight and flee. Because I grew up fighting alone. But I learned to fight, and have faith. And no, I have not met goals even in my writing. I am so limited, but God is not. In who sees my writings.
But thats o.k. I will fight the good fight of faith, and continue on. I will share what the Lord puts on my heart. I will fight. Life, is precious.
But our society, does not protect life. We do not promote it, or there would not be abortion clinics, throughout our nation.
Irony of just who I am, my mother, was not able to have children. She did not want me. She did not want children. She actually took medical, advancements, to tie her tubes, and it failed. I was conceived. But she did not abort me. She did not stop the plan of God for me and my life. I was born. My father prayed for me. I am an answer to prayer.
So, I appreciate life, I appreciate the life God has given me. Especially, after I accepted Christ as my Lord and savior. I cleaned up. Quick! I repented, I saw how close I was to death, and even hell.
I will not take the cowardly way out, by ending my own life, even when things have been terrible. And they have been, throughout my life. I have missed the boat, the plane, and the train, in a lot of things. Yes, I have regrets. But I will not give up…
Recently, we have heard in the news of two people, who have given up on life. They were people in the news. By their accomplishments, by their gifts and callings. But they took a wrong turn now. By suicide. I won’t name them. My goodness, they need closure. For their family. And then there was a friend in the family, to my son. He was a young man, and he took his life.
Why do people give up? Why do they stop caring. Yes, life is hard sometimes, but don’t ever give up. That is a spirit of suicide, that goes totally against who we can be in Christ. And that comes right from hell, not God.
You have to know who Christ is, and you have to know who the devil is. And the devil, comes to kill, steal, and destroy. Read John Chapter 10 from a King James bible.
Christ, said, He came to give life, and that we “might” have it abundantly. Might? Hmm, what does that mean, when you are trying to sort out life, its situations, your hope, your faith, and you are trying, to figure out what to do?
It does not mean taking your own life, or giving up. I guess, I just come from a place of faith, because thats who I am. Because I have not always had the success, to say, my life is a success. Or that I have lived abundantly. I have not always. But I dream about it. I hope for it, and I won’t let go of God, or of my hopes, in having that life abundantly.
Some might say, because I am in my 60’s thats it, well I say, the devil is a liar.
And I know it. You see, “But God”….. has stepped in so many times, when I was at the bottom of the barrel, and saved me. Yes suicide, and giving up, are options, but not if I embrace who I am in Christ. And thats the whole point here.
I submit to God. I resist the devil, and he must flee. I do it even here, in my writing…. I submit to God, and God can fight the battle in my sickness, in my healing, in my relationships, or in my life, in general. I won’t give up.
I hold on, even now, and I write, and I let this out of my spirit, to proclaim it. Because there are people, who do not know God. They do not know how to believe in God, they don’t know, that there is always a chance, even if it looks like you are not promised tomorrow.
I have seen as you have, many get a bad doctors report, and they believe, thats it. Thats the end of it, just give up, take your own life, at your own pace, and they end it. Thats so wrong.
Look, my God is not an ATM. I am not going to give you a bunch of bull, and try to twist your mind, or your spirit, by telling you, just have faith.
You cannot have faith, if you do not know who God is. Thats the bottom line. You have to learn who He is. You have to know, that He is not mocked. You have to learn, and know, that He has His commandments, His ways, and we are to follow them. Not religion. Not some mans, rules, regulations, and traditions, that he established in a group, and calls it religion, or even Christianity.
When I see, the distortion of Gods holy word, by so many, by pastors, by churches, it makes me righteously angry. And I get that because, I know, the truth, the truth, that truly has set me free. When I see corrupt Bibles, that are part truth, and part lie, yes I get righteously, angry.
But yet, I don’t push my faith on anybody any more. Oh yes, I did, I would be a liar, if I did not admit that. But…. I don’t try that hard any more. I don’t give up. But I don’t try to force faith, or force belief in God. Thats His job, not mine.
But I won’t give up. Even if He does not answer my prayers. Even if He leaves me like I am right now. I won’t….
I will, write, and write, about His goodness, about what pleases Him, because I know Him. I know Him personally.
I don’t have a religion, I have a relationship with Him. And it began, the moment, I saw what He did on that cross for me. That He took those beatings, that He was nailed to the cross, and endured the pain for me. The mocking. The sorrow. He took it, so I could write this, even now to you.
Don’t give up on life! Don’t give in to the spirit of suicide, or even giving up for that matter. After He died, He went straight to hell, to get those keys from the devil, so the devil, would not have that legal right, to make you give up. Or to steal your soul. But you have to start even where you are right now….
You know how you begin?
By His holy King James word. By throwing away that pride, that stupid pride, that wants to deny there is no God. By admitting, you are a sinner. By repenting, for even giving up, on God, and on life. Because there can be a tomorrow. He can heal you. Just by what He did on that cross. He can heal you physically, and spiritually.
But you have to humble yourself in His sight. And yes, repent, daily, because we can sin daily. Many don’t like to believe this, but if you backslide, you can lose salvation, because you gave into sin. Do we not know, sin, separates us from God? This is King James scriptural. He says, He will blot out our names. Look it up…
READ THESE SCRIPTURES CAREFULLY.
BUT HE GIVETH MORE GRACE. WHEREFORE HE SAITH, GOD RESISTETH THE PROUD, BUT GIVETH GRACE UNTO THE HUMBLE. SUBMIT YOURSELVES THEREFORE TO GOD, RESIST THE DEVIL, AND HE WILL FLEE FROM YOU. DRAW NEAR TO GOD, AND HE WILL DRAW NEAR TO YOU. CLEANSE YOUR HANDS, YE SINNERS, AND PURIFY YOUR HEARTS YE DOUBLE MINDED. BE AFFLICTED, AND MOURN, AND WEEP, LET YOUR LAUGHTER BE TURNED TO MOURNING, AND YOUR JOY TO HEAVINESS. HUMBLE YOURSELVES IN THE SIGHT OF THE LORD, AND HE SHALL LIFT YOU UP. JAMES 4:6-10. KJV.
You cannot resist the devil, without submitting to God first, dear ones.
And the devil is the one, that is telling you to give up, give up on life, give up on your dreams, give up on your health. He is saying give up. He is telling you that with a spirit of suicide for whatever it is….
Don’t you dare. I raise up my sword of truth, to tell him, even now, he is a liar, and must depart, yes, I feel sick. Yes, I hurt, yes, I am sad, but I will never give up on God. I write this with tears, because I know what its like to give up. Yet, I gather myself up, even if I have to crawl on my knees. And I do…
And just this week, again, we saw souls, give up. And it grieves me. Because there is always a chance with God. If only they had submitted to God, resisted the enemy, that spirit, of suicide, and giving up, would have left them. It grieves me, because His commandment is thou shalt not kill. Killing oneself, and the temple, He resides in, is wrong.
I don’t know Gods mercy, in all things. But if I do not do my part, how can I work out my salvation, with fear and trembling, of Him. When we are commanded to fear God. That is not taught by our prolific, ministers. Because they just tickle your ears. But I have nothing to lose but my sorrows, by telling you to fear God, and don’t give up!
Sounds easy? Huh? It is if we take His yoke. He told us, take my yoke it is easy…..
TAKE MY YOKE UPON YOU, AND LEARN OF ME; FOR I AM MEEK AND LOWLY IN HEART: AND YE SHALL FIND REST UNTO YOUR SOULS. FOR MY YOKE IS EASY, AND MY BURDEN IS LIGHT. Matthew 11:30-31 KJV.
Finding rest for your soul, requires your submitting to God, resisting the devil, and He will flee. This is how we find our rest.
Not by giving up. Till my last breath, I will trust God. I will submit to God, I will resist the devil. Whether or not anything else changes, or not. I will try and do it His way. For He is the way, the truth, and life.
Go to Him now, bow down, in the sight of a mighty God. Repent, tell Him you are sorry, tell Him, you want life abundantly. Let Him heal you, and cleanse you, and renew you, for a new lease in life. Read Jeremiah 17:14, it is a prayer, for healing…..
Yes, life, abundantly, by only doing that….. can start the process. There is more. A whole book, that tells you how. And its not just in the book, I wrote, “HOW TO HAVE FAITH.” But its in His holy word, a sword of truth, the King James Bible. Don’t use anything else, if you don’t want to give up.
Yes, I could keep writing, here right now, but a little food for the soul, by writing Gods word, nourishes me, and so I close till, God says, write again, Elena.
Write it again….
Blessings, and love,