WHEN IT “SEEMS” LIKE GOD SAYS NO ~ By Christian Author Elena Ramirez

I suppose, I want to emphasize the word “seems” in my title, because, well anything, can change, with God.  All things are possible.  He says, is there anything too hard for me?

BEHOLD, I AM THE LORD, THE GOD OF ALL FLESH:  IS THERE ANYTHING TOO HARD FOR ME?  JEREMIAH 32:27 King James.  

And honestly, I know there is nothing impossible with Him.  Thats why I love my King James word.  Because of His promises.  His holiness, His authority, His power….

Because He speaks things to my soul, that I embrace. That I claim from His Holy word.  Again, this is why I emphasize a King James, because it is His voice.  Not changed.

Anyway, back to my thoughts, I have seen Him do things in my life that amazes me.  Including the beginning of my life, since, I was not supposed to be born, but my father prayed for me.  I give Him glory.

Well…..

I have been having a hearts desire for years.  And please don’t try and guess it, I would not tell you, if you did guess correctly.

DELIGHT THYSELF ALSO IN THE LORD;  AND HE SHALL GIVE THEE THE DESIRES OF THINE HEART.  COMMIT THY WAY UNTO THE LORD; TRUST ALSO IN HIM; AND HE SHALL BRING IT TO PASS.  PSALM 37:4-5 KING JAMES.  

I have held onto that, and maybe you can see, as I explain further.  It’s a promise from God.  That I have held onto dearly.

In some ways, and yes some other ways, it’s just been a matter of trusting God, waiting, and waiting.  And waiting some more.  And then waiting again.

I am taking a rest, for now. If it happens.  Wow, glory to God.  Sounds sad to write.  But its true.  I just put it in the lap of my Lord, at His throne.

See, I have found myself kind of freaking out about this.  In other words, I found that I was putting my happiness, in this hope, this desire.  Lately, it consumed me.

I don’t think I have been living daily content or fulfilled, because I kept thinking if this happens, I will be happy.  It will fulfill me, I want to say;

Look what the Lord has done for me. 

But, I found myself lately being very discontent.  It’s been affecting my moods, my spirit.  Yesterday, I had an epitome.  A revelation.  I thought, is this thing an idol to me, am I getting my eyes off of God?  Am I consumed.  Obsessed?  Yes. I think I was.  Maybe because I have wanted it for so long…..

I had a conversation with someone the day before this, who dismissed me so rudely.  Because he had posted, that you don’t have to do anything for God to love you.  Or something to that affect.  It bothered me, deep down.  I was not trying to argue, but I wanted to express my heart in this.

Because I believe in works.

I believe in serving God.  I believe in being a reflection of Christ, doing as He did, in some ways.  I am not God, I don’t claim to be.  But I want to be like Jesus, doing things for Him.  I guess that’s why I write.  I am not perfect, nor will I ever claim to be.  I know my faults, and flaws more than anybody.  Seems the devil knows them too, so I have to rebuke him in these matters.

But anyway, I expressed to this person, I love serving God, and he called it religion. Dismissed me, like I was a pesky fly, said, he was showing the love of God to others.  But dismissed me.  I thought it was hypocritical.  To say that yet be rude to me. So I pursued it, and told him it was not right to call my feelings or expression religion.  It ended up, where he did not nor could not see the error of his rudeness.  So, I tried to be the mature one, and ended the conversation.

Not sure, why this scripture comes to me, maybe because he really did trample on my feelings, concerning serving God.

GIVE NOT THAT WHICH IS HOLY UNTO THE DOGS, NEITHER CAST YE YOUR PEARLS BEFORE SWINE, LEST THEY TRAMPLE THEM UNDER THEIR FEET, AND TURN AGAIN AND REND YOU.  MATTHEW 7:6 King James. 

It hurt me.  I don’t know why.  Maybe I did not have my armor of God on tightly.  But I had a fretful nights sleep.  The next morning, yesterday, I woke up.  Angry, agitated, and I won’t go into details.  But I did not act nice, or kind.  Christ like.  Instead, I was the old Elena, the one, before Christ. I saw myself so frustrated.  I cried most of the morning.  I repented.

But something told me, and I believe it was the holy spirit, go back to that conversation, and tell that mean man you forgive him.  So I did.

I felt the release so much, that I saw the poison, his mocking did to me, especially coming from a so-called Christian man.  That when I said, I forgive you, I felt the release.  It was that quick.

This man by the way, did not acknowledge me.  But I believe he saw the post.  It’s o.k. I don’t need his confirmation or acknowledgement.  I just need peace with God.

But it made me see too, that this hearts desire of mine, was also contributing to my anger.  To my hopes.  And I let it go, once and for all, and I said,

Lord, thy will be done.

I am tired.  You cannot believe how tired I am.  Weary tired.  I am tired of hoping for this.  I am tired, of dangling this in front of me, and I cannot live my life like this, so desirous of this thing.  I have hoped for it to be my miracle.  But, it has not manifested.

I felt another release, praise God….

I am not mad at God.  I want to say this, and clarify that I am not angry at anybody to be honest.  I feel the love, and the sweet holy spirit more than ever.  But I have to say, I don’t feel this hope or urgency any more.  He took the desire away.

If it’s for sure a no, I think I can live with it.  I know I can. See, I want to be careful with God, because I know even here, I have power of life and death in my tongue.  So I don’t want to speak with finality, that it is a no.  It just seems like a no.  But I am just leaning on God, to have a new spirit.  A clean heart.   I think I really need to work on that now.

But I am o.k. I have wanted this hearts desire for years.  Maybe I have tried to work toward it to please God, to get it.  Maybe He has tested me, I kind of feel like I failed Him, to be honest.  Like I failed the test.  I don’t know.

But, in any event, I just want to pick the pieces up, of what I have left, in this and go on.  See, it seems like He has closed so many doors, on me, that I wonder.  But I have tried, no one cannot say, I have not, because I have.  I have repented.  When I am wrong, I admit it, but when I am right, I stand by that as well.

If I see someone get their heart desire in this, I will be happy for them.  I will rejoice.  I will not compare myself to them and ask God why?  Nor will I be jealous, and let that ugly enemy poison my soul.

Anyway, I just wanted to write this, to encourage you.  If you are waiting, and hoping, maybe this will help. Even if it seems like it’s a no. God loves you.  He loves me, I know that.

His refusal to me, in this matter will not change my mind or heart about God.  I know He is not like a genie, or an ATM, where you push His buttons to get what you want.  He is almighty God.  I am in awe of Him, His creation.  I always want to do things HIS way, even if it looks like works. Because it gives me faith.  Because again, He is the way, the truth, and life.

EVEN SO FAITH, IF IT HATH NOT WORKS IS DEAD BEING ALONE.  JAMES 2:17 King James. 

Hey if I can live a good life, a healthy life, and a life that worships Him in works.  With my family.  I have love. Even though some folks that are not in my life, that I called friends. And I loved….

I know my salvation is sweet.  I will never take for granted what Christ did for me on the cross.  I won’t treat it shabbily.  By sinning.  Or by treating my salvation like a license to sin.  I will serve God for the rest of my life.  You can call it works.  You can even mock it, and call it religion.  Like that mean man did.   But I know God is not mocked.  Galatians 6:7 King James.

But, I feel obligated to God, and I am grateful.  I am free, this desire, no longer controls me.

It may seem like no.  But I am o.k.  I love God. And I praise God.  I am so thankful.  Anyway….

I am not letting go of my hearts desire.  I want to make sure I say this.  I have hoped in it for so long.  It is a part of me, I cannot turn my desires, on and off.  But I am letting go of just being consumed by it.  I am trusting God.  I had to rephrase this.  But I am not letting go of God.  Ever.  I hold onto His hand tightly.  I love HIM!

EVERY GOOD AND PERFECT GIFT IS FROM ABOVE, AND COMETH DOWN FROM THE FATHER OF LIGHTS, WITH WHOM IS NO VARIABLENESS, NEITHER SHADOW OF TURNING.  JAMES 1:17 KING JAMES.  

In Christ,

 

Elena Ramirez

 

 

DO YOUR PART THEN LEAVE THE REST IN GODS HANDS ~ By Christian Author Elena Ramirez.

I believe, God is on my side.  Why?  Because I am on His side.

So I know enough, to say when I have done my part; I have to leave the rest in Gods hands.  And just say, THY WILL BE DONE!

Life is so unpredictable.  You may think you are doing right, even by God, and something weird, or uncalled for will just happen.

But I do trust Gods divine appointments, and even when these things happen, I have learned, to just trust God.  I will not let go of God, as I tried to communicate in my last post.  For I did get tested.  Just recently. I hope I passed, Gods test.

But I do want to emphasize that we do have great responsibilities as Christians:  

1.  Don’t hide your light, for Christ ever.  In fact, be bold, be courageous for what He did.  On the cross, for your salvation.  Acknowledge Him, in all your ways.
2. Obey God.  But that means you need to study, and truly understand what Gods King James word states. USE THAT FOR ITS NOT CORRUPTED. So you do not misinterpret Him, or His Holy spirit.  The enemy will try and deceive you.  So you are not ashamed.  You have to know what God says!
3. Serve God.   You want faith, then you need to serve Him. Because faith without works is dead. 
4. Pray, pray without ceasing.  Constantly talk to God.
5. Walk in love, with God, and with others.  If you are not, you are giving place to the enemy.
6. Forgive.  Always forgive.  You don’t want that poison in your soul.  Nor do you want to stop your own blessings.
7. Repent.  Repent daily.  See, we all sin, we all come short of Gods glory.  So be careful with the judging, that comes so easily.  It does.  Yes, we are called to warn.  But we all need to be reminded.  We serve a Holy God.  So yes, repent.  

Just some reminders here folks, but we need to never take our responsibilities for granted.  I could have listed the scriptures that remind us about these clues.  But you know what, you need to grow.  You need to search.  Get a King James bible, look them up. They are all based on King James word.

So….

Sometimes, I wonder, did I have my armor of God on?  When things happen, that are sometimes unpleasant situations.  I don’t know.

But all I do know is if I keep that little check list, in mind, when I go through life, my dear God makes sure, I am covered.

In fact, I had an unpleasant situation just the other day.  It kind of messed with my faith.  But, I just said, nope.  But when this happened, I did say, no weapon formed against me will prosper.  I said it right away.  I also released someone.  In forgiveness.

God has this, then God gave me this scripture:

HE THAT DWELLETH IN THE SECRET PLACE OF THE MOST HIGH SHALL ABIDE UNDER THE SHADOW OF THE ALMIGHTY. I WILL SAY OF THE LORD, HE IS MY REFUGE AND MY FORTRESS: MY GOD IN HIM WILL I TRUST. SURELY HE SHALL DELIVER THEE FROM THE SNARE OF THE FOWLER, AND FROM THE NOISOME PESTILENCE. HE SHALL COVER THEE WITH HIS FEATHERS: AND UNDER HIS WINGS SHALT THOU TRUST: HIS TRUTH SHALL BE THY SHIELD AND BUCKLER. PSALM 91:1-4. KING JAMES.

I am just thinking about being covered with His feathers, under His wings. His love. Thank you Lord, for this word. I praise you. Thy will be done. Glory to God, for always loving me.

 

God reminded me, I had nothing to worry about.  Because I was in that secret place with Him.  I was covered by His feathers.  He laid down His life for us on the cross, and by His stripes we are healed.  God willing, maybe some day, this can be a testimony to share, but right now it is private.

Do you know what a relief that was to me, at that moment?  That I went through what I did? I was scared for a few.  Because I just was.  I am human.  Yes, I have faith, but the enemy, wanted me to be tossed to and fro.  I said no!  I will come forth, after I have been tried, and will reflect gold.

BUT HE KNOWETH THE WAY THAT I TAKE: WHEN HE HATH TRIED ME, I SHALL COME FORTH AS GOLD.  JOB 23:10 King James. 

THAT THE TRIAL OF YOUR FAITH, BEING MUCH MORE PRECIOUS THAN OF GOLD THAT PERISHETH, THOUGH IT BE TRIED WITH FIRE, MIGHT BE FOUND UNTO PRAISE AND HONOUR AND GLORY AT THE APPEARING OF JESUS CHRIST.  I Peter 1:7 King James.

Yes I praise, and honor my Lord, giving Him glory to my Lord and savior Jesus Christ in this matter.

All I know, is at this point in my life, is that every moment I have on this earth, I want to be blessing God.  Serving Him.  I don’t want to miss an opportunity, where I would even look back and say.  I missed it.  I already missed it other times.  So I don’t want to do that now.  Or take grace for granted.  Or really, to be more specific, take what Christ did on that cross for me.  If I could shout it out to the world, and make a difference, I would, if I could.  But even if its just one soul, who might read this, and realize, I am speaking truth, and change their ways.  Well, I don’t need to know, but God knows.

To think…I could have done this for you Lord.  But I missed it, would just grieve me.  So my prayer is, show me Lord. And please give me my hearts desire in this matter.  He knows.  Theres more to this prayer, but that’s between me and God.

Thanks for reading my thoughts today.

 

To His glory.

Elena Ramirez