I am older now, I am now seventy years old. I just had my birthday recently. I have a story. I guess, we all have a story of who we are, why we are, the way we are. What shapes us, what guides us, what has life taught us? Deep huh?
I choose to write about what I have learned in a deep way. Because scratching the surface does not cut it. And so I share my faith. Is sharing my faith easy? NO!
There are things about me, that I wish I could not express. That I could keep quiet about, but I never really had family, or siblings, or even friends, who even understood, let alone agreed with me. So I turned to God. Yes, at a very young age. And there was a time, I walked away from HIM. And that was the biggest mistake I ever, made in my life. But it taught me.
It taught me that there is a God, and I really cannot be me, without expressing that. Do I try and push my belief on others? No. I learned that as well a long time ago. I respect others beliefs, because I understand, that we all learn things differently. But, not only that, I am not really a talker. I have always found my outlet in writing. So I write about my faith. Again, never pushing what I know, or at least not with those who are people, in my life, that I know, never to cross that line. But if they crossed it I would meet them there in the middle.
So I have been quiet. Yet, I know what God says in HIS word, that we are to shine our lights. We are to give God glory.
LET YOUR LIGHT SO SHINE BEFORE MEN, THAT THEY MAY SEE YOUR GOOD WORKS, AND GLORIFY YOUR FATHER WHICH IS IN HEAVEN. Matthew 5:16 King James.
I do so on social media. I shine my light, because again I am not really a talker. But I do share it, if I feel the prompting, and try and comfort others, that I meet, I tell them, to trust God, but I don’t try and preach. I do try and be careful with that. Thats the only outlet I really do have. But even there lately, thoughts on God are censored. I have seen that, the devil does not want people to know truth. Which is sad. But it is happening even in our country, folks are being denied, for just believing.
Times, have changed. Its a different world, from what I grew up in. There are things that are accepted, that are evil, and ugly, and morals and values, are not honored. If people have values, and morals, why don’t they say anything, I wonder?
At this point in my life, the only ones who really truly understand me, are my son, and husband, who I love dearly. My husband knows my heart, and protects my feelings, and understands my faith. We could not have gotten married if he did not. I am a deep quiet well of water. My son as well, he is growing, a young man. But I don’t push my faith on him as he finds his way. I do tell him what I know, but he will grow, he will find his way. God will guide him. But he understands me.
Many do not understand me. Or if they do understand me, they have their reasons for staying away. I respect that. I have come to a place in my life, where God has so blessed me, in life, that I am content.
Being content, is being at peace, with myself, and others, even if others do not agree with me, or my faith. I have this blog, that is sort of like a diary, except you won’t find any dirty tidbits of any kind of a revelation, that would shame me. Why? I took it to the cross years ago. I realized years ago, very strongly, that I have to express my faith. Without condemning someone. Without judging someone, because I never liked that feeling myself.
We all sin, and come short of the glory of God. We all do, and don’t think that you don’t, we do. I cannot be in denial, of who I am in Christ. I always remember this verse, that Christ told us, that if we were ashamed of HIM, HE would be ashamed of us.
FOR WHOSOEVER SHALL BE ASHAMED OF ME AND OF MY WORDS, OF HIM SHALL THE SON OF MAN BE ASHAMED, WHEN HE SHALL COME IN HIS OWN GLORY, AND IN HIS FATHERS OF THE HOLY ANGELS. LUKE 9:26 King James.
So I will even state it here. I am not ashamed of who I am in Christ. Whether people agree with me, or not. Whether they don’t believe or not. I know that I know there is a God, and I praise HIM.
FOR I AM NOT ASHAMED OF THE GOSPEL OF CHRIST: FOR IT IS THE POWER OF GOD UNTO SALVATION TO EVERYONE THAT BELIEVETH; TO THE JEW FIRST AND ALSO TO THE GREEK. Romans 1:16 King James.
I am not a people pleaser, I do try and please God. Its the end of 2023, I have so many goals, and aspirations. Even at this point in my life. I found my pour painting, an outlet, that just keeps me busy as well. Which, I never knew I had a talent for, but I do. I like learning, and growing, on that vine with Christ, HE just showed me though, and its a gift. One that I pray to give HIM glory in.
FOR DO I NOW PERSUADE MEN, OR GOD? OR DO I SEEK TO PLEASE MEN? FOR IF I YET PLEASED MEN, I SHOULD NOT BE THE SERVANT OF CHRIST. Galatians 1:10 King James.
I am a servant of Christ, I do works. I know this did not save me. But I do share my faith, because of who HE is, and what HE has done in my life. I serve Christ, and if it brings others to HIM, by who I am, or what I know, then glory to God.
But I always know life is in Gods hands. But I will close this year, expressing my faith, shouting it to the mountain tops. Even if no one hears me, or reads my blog. I will not be ashamed. I am grateful to God. I love God, with all my heart, soul, and mind. HE has been so good to me. Answered my prayers, still answers my prayers. Protects me, takes people out of my life, who don’t love me. Who have been jealous of me. Who really were not my friend. HE teaches me to be kind, so much HE has taught me, and done for me, so no, I don’t think my faith is private.
I am scratching the surface, but even from my beginnings. HE taught me, HE was there. See, I was not to be born. Long story short, mama could not have children, but my father prayed for me, to be conceived. I was. So, just in that, I know there is a God, and I will not keep my faith private.
Blessings, and love, may God bless your New year. I pray that for all of us.
AND HOPE MAKETH NOT ASHAMED; BECAUSE THE LOVE OF GOD IS SHED ABROAD IN OUR HEARTS BY THE HOLY GHOST WHICH IS GIVEN UNTO US. Romans 5:5 King James.
So as I conclude, all I know is that Christ is the way, the truth and life. For me anyway, I really could not get to know God, till I began really walking in love with HIM, and yes others. Trying to keep the commandments. Trying to judge myself, and see where I have gone wrong, and right. I never went wrong trying to find HIM, HE showed me who HE is. This is why I have faith, and try to share it.
Elena Ramirez
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